disarmed:
deprived of the apparatus she
had been using to cover her face and aim at Sabina like a weapon. She was completely
at the mercy of Tomas's mistress. This beautiful submission intoxicated Tereza. She
wished that the moments she stood naked opposite Sabina would never end.
I think that Sabina, too, felt the strange enchantment of the situation: her lover's wife
standing oddly compliant and timorous before her. But after clicking the shutter two or
three times, almost frightened by the enchantment and eager to dispel it, she burst into
loud laughter.
Tereza followed suit, and the two of them got dressed.
All previous crimes of the Russian empire had been committed under the cover of a
discreet shadow. The deportation of a million Lithuanians, the murder of hundreds of
thousands of Poles, the liquidation of the Crimean Tatars remain in our memory, but no
photographic documentation exists; sooner or later they will therefore be proclaimed as
fabrications. Not so the 1968 invasion of Czechoslovakia, of which both stills and
motion pictures are stored in archives throughout the world.
Czech photographers and cameramen were acutely aware that they were the ones who
could best do the only thing left to do: preserve the face of violence for the distant
future. Seven days in a row, Tereza roamed the streets, photographing Russian
soldiers and officers in compromising situations. The Russians did not know what to do.
They had been carefully briefed about how to behave if someone fired at them or threw
stones, but they had received no directives about what to do when someone aimed a
lens.
She shot roll after roll and gave about half of them, undeveloped, to foreign journalists
(the borders were still open, and reporters passing through were grateful for any kind of
document). Many of her photographs turned up in the Western press. They were
pictures of tanks, of threatening fists, of houses destroyed, of corpses covered with
bloodstained red-white-and-blue Czech flags, of young men on motorcycles racing full
speed around the tanks and waving Czech flags on long staffs, of young girls in
unbelievably short skirts provoking the miserable sexually famished Russian soldiers by
kissing random passersby before their eyes. As I have said, the Russian invasion was
not only a tragedy; it was a carnival of hate filled with a curious (and no longer
explicable) euphoria.
She took some fifty prints with her to Switzerland, prints she had made herself with all
the care and skill she could muster. She offered them to a high-circulation illustrated
magazine. The editor gave her a kind reception (all Czechs still wore the halo of their
misfortune, and the good Swiss were touched); he offered her a seat, looked through
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the prints, praised them, and explained that because a certain time had elapsed since
the events, they hadn't the slightest chance ( not that they aren't very beautiful! ) of
being published.
But it's not over yet in Prague! she protested, and tried to explain to him in her bad
German that at this very moment, even with the country occupied, with everything
against them, workers' councils were forming in the factories, the students were going
out on strike demanding the departure of the Russians, and the whole country was
saying aloud what it thought. That's what's so unbelievable! And nobody here cares
anymore.
The editor was glad when an energetic woman came into the office and interrupted the
conversation. The woman handed him a folder and said, Here's the nudist beach
article.
The editor was delicate enough to fear that a Czech who photographed tanks would
find pictures of naked people on a beach frivolous. He laid the folder at the far end of
the desk and quickly said to the woman, How would you like to meet a Czech colleague
of yours? She's brought me some marvelous pictures.
The woman shook Tereza's hand and picked up her photographs. Have a look at mine
in the meantime, she said.
Tereza leaned over to the folder and took out the pictures.
Almost apologetically the editor said to Tereza, Of course they're completely different
from your pictures.
Not at all, said Tereza. They're the same.
Neither the editor nor the photographer understood her, and even I find it difficult to
explain what she had in mind when she compared a nude beach to the Russian
invasion. Looking through the pictures, she stopped for a time at one that showed a
family of four standing in a circle: a naked mother leaning over her children, her giant
tits hanging low like a goat's or cow's, and the husband leaning the same way on the
other side, his penis and scrotum looking very much like an udder in miniature.
You don't like them, do you? asked the editor.
They're good photographs.
She's shocked by the subject matter, said the woman. I can tell just by looking at you
that you've never set foot on a nude beach.
No, said Tereza.
The editor smiled. You see how easy it is to guess where you're from? The Communist
countries are awfully puritanical.
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There's nothing wrong with the naked body, the woman said with maternal affection. It's
normal. And everything normal is beautiful!
The image of her mother marching through the flat naked flashed through Tereza's
mind. She could still hear the laughter behind her back when she ran and pulled the
curtains to stop the neighbors from seeing her naked mother.
The woman photographer invited Tereza to the magazine's cafeteria for a cup of coffee.
Those pictures of yours, they're very interesting. I couldn't help noticing what a terrific
sense of the female body you have. You know what I mean. The girls with the
provocative poses!
The ones kissing passersby in front of the Russian tanks?
Yes. You'd be a top-notch fashion photographer, you know? You'd have to get yourself
a model first, someone like you who's looking for a break. Then you could make a
portfolio of photographs and show them to the agencies. It would take some time before
you made a name for yourself, naturally, but I can do one thing for you here and now:
introduce you to the editor in charge of our garden section. He might need some shots
of cactuses and roses and things.
Thank you very much, Tereza said sincerely, because it was clear that the woman
sitting opposite her was full of good will.
But then she said to herself, Why take pictures of cactuses? She had no desire to go
through in Zurich what she'd been through in Prague: battles over job and career, over
every picture published. She had never been ambitious out of vanity. All she had ever
wanted was to escape from her mother's world. Yes, she saw it with absolute clarity: no
matter how enthusiastic she was about taking pictures, she could just as easily have
turned her enthusiasm to any other endeavor. Photography was nothing but a way of
getting at something higher and living beside Tomas.
She said, My husband is a doctor. He can support me. I don't need to take pictures.
The woman photographer replied, I don't see how you can give it up after the beautiful
work you've done.
Yes, the pictures of the invasion were something else again. She had not done them for
Tomas. She had done them out of passion. But not passion for photography. She had
done them out of passionate hatred. The situation would never recur. And these
photographs, which she had made out of passion, were the ones nobody wanted
because they were out of date. Only cactuses had perennial appeal. And cactuses
were of no interest to her.
She said, You're too kind, really, but I'd rather stay at home. I don't need a job.
The woman said, But will you be fulfilled sitting at home?
Tereza said, More fulfilled than by taking pictures of cactuses.
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